Strange poker, Extremes and Confessions

    Tuesday, August 11, 2015, 7:53 AM [General]

    STRANGE POKER

    once again you find yourself in a rut... down to your last 1 dollar tournament buyin. one table 9 players. a couple of hours ago you are playing 6 tables. you're comfortable. making calculated risk. playing your game. the way you should... out classing your opponent. you're on your groove...

    THE GAME
    a day ago you had nothing... scheduling your day to coincide with splash out tournaments in hopes that you can have a couple of cent maybe a dollar... to have your fix. to be in the money. to have enough to buyin that 1usd 9 player sit and go where you are most comfortable at...

    5 players left... you hope dwindling. last place 1OOO in chips at 1OO/2OO blinds. you catch an AK you push. then you catch AQ you push again. now its 4 players left. you are at 2nd place. with a respectable 3OOO chips. then you catch an AK suited on the small blind. this is it... no raisers chip leader limping in. you push all in... he calls. KJ off suit. now you have him... flop comes. you catch an ace. now his really a gonner... then the turn and river comes. its a Q and a ten. ohhhh fudge.

    your world crashing over you... why?!? should i just raise a little? then push? i should have done that... but he should have folded... why did i allow myself to be back in this point... have i not learned my lesson? am i not smart enough? or worse... am i not good enough to be an online poker player?

    THE EXTREME
    and a little bit of confession

    I always found myself in this situation... in life and in poker. i can easily work hard and have what i wanted... spent countless hours with my highschool and college guidance councilor as she try to decipher why i have this mediocre of an existence when i should be excelling in every aspect of my life... why should i not... got the highest i.q. in the batch... my NSAT was on the 98.8 percentile... but everything comes with a price... this extreme gift that i have also come with an extreme lack of motivation. categorized as a below average genius... i have enough social skills to pass as a normal person... but not enough intelligence to be a rocket scientist... the dumbest among the smart and the smartest among the dumb... 

    never could i hold a steady job... always found myself in a situation where, like in my highschool and college years calling the person of authority an idiot... which in fact they are... but apparently people dont like being called an idiot even when they are doing or acting like one... as my college guidance councilor once said to me, after my dean sent me to her for pointing out that she was about to do is something stupid... "pointing out that she is doing something stupid is not doing her a favor, it is insulting her... it is not the proper social protocol" apparently i also found her advice stupid so i also pointed it out... my advice, after her years of studying and practice was also not wholly accepted... 

    so here i am trying to make extra cash out of poker... found the idea of making extra money out of poker ideal for me... no person of authority to call an idiot... less human interaction while you work. the hours are flexible... hours and hours facing multi table in my room where i am most comfortable at... it soothes me.

    up 2Ousd then QQ falls against K1O, KK over A3, AA over 1OQ... this happening like 7 times in less than an hour.

    you idiot! that's a stupid call!!![not sure if im calling them an idiot or I was referring to myself]
    * as mark from the comment box pointed out to me... its murphys law. crappy things are bound to happen... if you live in the extreme, on the edge. as most turbo sit and go players are... living in the edge, you are bound to fall... it is just a matter of falling with dignity. falling knowing that the odd have beaten you and not the player... with the extreme, comes the rush that we long for, or fix... but it also comes with higher chance of crashing... murphys cashing in, instead of you.

    THE ACTUAL CONFESSION

    I AM AN ADDICT!!!
    always chasing the next fix... started small. playing freerolls getting a couple of cents... maybe a dollar or two. maybe a 4O cent double or nothing if its less than a dollar... then the one dollar tourneys. grinding my way up... getting high. spending hours and hour till you reach the point where you feel good by merely staring at your cash box. you let go a smurk of satisfaction... then another day comes... it was as good as the last one. in less than 8hours youve doubled your bankroll... almost at the hundred dollar mark... life is good. your high. your comfortable. you are getting your fix. two more days like this and you can consider withdrawing...

    and then you crash... you tilt... unexplainable... "the game is rigged" idea floating at the back of your head... you feel crappy... and weak. the high is gone. you feel like an idiot for doing this cycle... you hate yourself... you hate poker... you considered all the hours you have spent with it all to waste... all useless unproductive hours... you vowed to quit. you walk around bankrupt...

    then you go home... and remember "hey theres a 2OOO summer splash tourney in a couple of minute"

    and the cycle begins again...

    sorry for the long post... here's a shorter one for those who like myself who have a mild ADHD.

    strange poker, extremes and confessions:

    make you high, like you can fly...
    then it pulls you down
    and make you frown...

    it gives you hope, it is like dope.
    i could not resist, the high i miss. 
    i am too weak...
    i am an addict.

    mehn this post is getting longer and longer by the day: 

    just read; how this months, blog of the month is interpreted... as 888 intended it to be; and my interpretation... is kinda off compared to what they want; and the rules stipulated that i can only post one to join the contest...
    but they never said i could not edit my post... so here it goes.

    Awhile back i was invited to my friends cousins wake of his grandfather[i was kinda out of place]... it was just a small gathering of family and the deceased friends and i think i was the only visitor there who did not personally knew the deceased... but the place had wifi and free foo and coffee so i went there and stayed for awhile. as all wake here in my country [philippines] gambling is legal and is always a staple for all wakes... 

    normally all forms of gambling here is illegal; if it is not sunctioned by the goverment... but because of traditions brought by the chinese which have already intertwined with the pilipino tradition. it is legal to gamble... aslong as you are gambling with in the premise of a dead person in a coffin. [a little bit of background info of my country] 

    so there i was... free food, free alcohol, free coffee and playing a game of poker with the family of the deceased... 

    but mehn; if you got used to the fast paced game of online poker, having cards delt instantaneously and playing 6 tables at a time... real live poker is... realy realy boring. plus the stakes was like 2usd. i have a better chance of earning more in a freeroll compared to the game im in...

    solution?

    got my laptop out and played poker online...
    and the game got a lot more interesting. atleast for me...

    in the end... it was a good day of poker. beating the multi table limit that was set by 888...

    not that mush of a story... not too strange, nor is it anyway extreme. but thats the only one i got. i hope you liked it. 

    [on the side note, this occured during the time i still had like 6Ousd bankroll and i was not yet in the rutt that i am currently at]

    if you are reading this and you like what i wrote... please press the like button bellow... kinda need a boost in my bankroll to get me out of freerolling. thanks


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    no add on button during the addon period

    Friday, August 7, 2015, 9:18 AM [General]

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    his happened to me twice already... was playing on an add on multi table tournament and i had no add on button available for me during the add on period...

    does other players here have the same issue?
    its a bummer cause twice i had a good chance of getting into the money... 
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    poker, personalities and perfection

    Sunday, August 2, 2015, 12:22 PM [General]

         
    a blog about poker personalities and perfection...  well i dont really follow poker players, so the only way i can wright a blog about it is to see online poker as a woman... your girlfriend if you have none and a mistress if you are in a realationship.  
     
    [played with other sites before and so far i had my longest "relationship" here at 888... why? because this mistress fits me just right. the bigger sites are too hard for me, too much robot players, all playing an almost perfect game. and the smaller sites are too boring, to hard to find games... so my 888 mistress is just right for me] 


    Online poker is a bitter sweet love affair, your online
    mistress...

    I am not a professional online poker player... Played with almost all site but never was i able to maintain my bankroll... Im more like a recreational micro player that sometimes get to withdraw a hundred bucks but ends up depositing it all back in because i have bankrupted my current bankroll... But still i come back in...

    For the allure of this mistress is quiet enticing... Mehn when we are together on her high times is uncanny, our dance seems perfect, prestine, like nobody can stop us... we are meant to be.

    Spending hours and hours every week glued in front of the laptop playing 1-5usd sit and gos. Hoping that the ups would continue, and the downs not that costly...

    It is bitter sweet for at my level and point of view , a kinda ok recreational online poker player it is much like having a girlfriend (which i actually had an issue with mine when i play online poker, but its ok now, everything was resolved once we broke up) (and no we did broke up because of poker, im just saying that my online mistress no longer have to compete with her)

    Enough with the flashback...

    Online poker is much like a girlfriend or a mistress. Its too damn unpredictable. Yes you might be able to say that there is a system, a science, a mathematical equation to put yourself in the position of advantage... But no, you still get to loose all you money when

    shes pm-essing. And unlike the real girlfriend it that only gets to do that once a month. This one is every weekend. On the week end all hell breaks loose. You get to see her punishing your pocket pair aces and kings like they are 2 7 off suit... You would not comprehend why... "why honey? what did i do wrong? how can i fix this?" One dollar games become pure madness... Then you go up for some sanity. To the 3 and 5 dollar games, but still your aces gets punished. Your consistency get punished... now matter how much money you put in, it is not enough for her, her hunger... her madness is insatiable. You get rivered, They catch a trip, a one card flash or straight, You get beaten down and you dont know why, you dont know where did you go wrong... "Honey, I love you? Why cant we be the same like before?" But no this mistress is unforgiving... She will kick you when you are down. She will show no mercy when you are on her path of wrath and destruction...

    But still, you are still there. Hoping against hope that the tides will turn to your favor. For you know so well that, this madness that you currently hate from the bottom of your heart, the one that is costing you a better part of your bankroll, this characters that you currently despise for calling your strong pre-flop raise with 8-10 off suit and finally catching a gut shot straight at the river beating your pocket aces, after you made a strong raise on the flop and turn, is the same character that you love to play with... Just not your time... [too much of a good thing is not really that good afer all.] So you weather it out... Hoping that it turns before you go bankrupt...

    It seldom does... [for my case] For the madness is contagious. Soon enough you find yourself calling an early game push with pocket queens, aq, and jj's... You lose your cool, your consistency. You lose yourself in her madness... instead of holding her tight, you join in the madness. After a couple of hours...

    You find yourself Writing a blog about poker instead of playing... In hopes that, maybe, just maybe what you wright is good enough to replenish your bankroll and start the whole process again... to once again have the bankroll to dance with your mistress. to please her, to fill the thrill of the chase... to slowly raise your bankroll, bring your relationship to a higher level... to caress her gently, and to dance with her... in the most prestine and perfect way... until. she once again pms and throws her wrath on you. leaving you on the gutter with 16 cents under your name...


    "oh sweet mistress, if you do not mind;
    if you must show me your wrath...
    please be gentle,
    please be kind..." 






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