What a wonderful feeling it is to see progress in whatever goal you are reaching for . You want to tell others and maybe even  strut a little . Yes , you are getting there making small strides forward and you feel good . Alas this is short lived because the powers that be do not like it when you brag and so punish you ... Even if you were not really braging just sharing your accomplishment . I don't know about you , but for me , this is how it goes . Now in poker variance is your natural foe , the one you can count on to turn the tables on you at anytime . This is accepted as par for the course . But when I open my mouth  to say hey look I am doing so much better now Wham I get hammered , not by variance but by other more subtle things . Take the MTT's , I played these often  and used to make it to the cash maybe once in 20 or 30 games played . I have read articles asked questions watched videos and now am getting better results . So instead of 1 in 20 to 30 I am now at an average of 8 cashes in 15 .... do I feel good ? yes , do I want to tell people ? yes . Ahhhh but what happens when I strut a little .. I played 3 MTT's since my little strut and broke before the bubble . Bad play ? maybe since I know I have lots to learn yet ... but it doesn't help when every second hand they shift you to another table limiting your reads on the table to zip , nor does it help that when your moved you get put into the blinds time after time ... so no reads on table and lossing blinds every hand .... Then there is the set up hand , you flop the nut str8 rainbow and get busted  by runner runner on the turn and river . Well I learned my lesson .... No more shall I strut should this nonesense ever stop , I can feel good about my achievements even if no one else knows about them . 

have a great day !     nitevenom (feeling accomplished) 

I have rambled on by times , and partook in the forum . Openly bared my weakness's without shame for all to see . Some have tried to help , some offered but were to busy with a full card of things to do and so could not and some were amused and flocked to the tables I played at to help themselves to my droppings . Still I continued to try to do what I set out to do.... ( to prove an old dog can learn new tricks) . Well I have not been disappointed , I did learn something . I have learned to swim in a pond of sharks , but not to survive . I have discovered the meaning of the word fish in poker terms . I have learned this lable fits me like a taylor made suit . I have discovered that I need to re-evaluate my potential of ever becoming a good poker player . Like a sacrificial lamb I threw myself at the wolves in the hopes that it would help me learn , alas that was not the right way for me . A time of reflection is upon me and I know there is none to few of you who will be happy to hear that now will be a time of the silence of the Lamb. 

                                                                                                                     nitevenom

I started posting blogs on this forum because I felt welcome , comfortable and at home within this community . I wish I could post good blogs about the game I love to play but alas this can not be for I know not enough about the game , I am a simple person who has the desire to become the best poker player I can be . I regret very much the fact that people of knowledge in this field  are now no longer posting because I am sure they would make myself and others with the same passion to learn to become much better players . In fact having been reffered to older post and with tips and input on hands posted and played I have already improved my game ... that said I still have much to learn . I'll admit I ramble on by times and my blogs probably should be posted on Utube with the music and not just a long string of words wasting space and time for other more poker related blogs , it was my way of dealing with some bad days or games . After today , I promise only to post in the forum and only about hands I have difficulty with and am truly sorry for cluttering up this space with all my gibberish  

                                                                    nitevenom (Les to my friends) 

Recently I have played at a few tables and ran into some rather nasty players , a few of them repeat offenders . Normally I ignore them and if they continue this behavior over several tables of play I just block them . But yesterday I sat at a micro 2/4 FL game and a player showed up and started with his/her antics again as has done in a previous session . For awhile I played and watched him/her abuse myself and others , and also watched the responses he/she was getting from a few of the players around the table . Incredibale , amazing and quite frankly ridiculous display of aggression on all sides . To me it is unexceptable to use foul language , racial slurs and the recomendation of deviant sex acts one can preform to explain ones displeasure at the abuser or for that matter the use of same by the abuser . Anyways I ramble... normally I ignore this behavior but not this day. He\she was having a bad day and losing and it did not matter if you made a good play or a bad play or what he\she presumed to be a donk play if he\she played the hand and lost it started another round of trash talking . The last hand was when I had entered with a raise , bet every round he/she calling same and me winning the hand . well I had a ty ready to send so I sent it and what followed was a list of various forms of abuse and was ended with I hope you die . ...So for a few minutes I looked at the chat and then replied ..... yes , we are all born to do that one day..... you could hear the silence , next couple of hands and then the player typed ...your so cruel and left the table . No foul language , no racial slur nor any  other form of abuse did I deliver , yet it had the desired result . 

I believe that many players when they behave in this abusive manner think it is ok , mistaking it to be aggression . A little while before I even joined 888 I wrote a piece about aggression on my facebook page , and today decided maybe it needs to be seen here so I copied it to here ..


Aggression ....

in its broadest sense, is behavior, or a disposition, that is forceful, hostile or attacking.
We have all met with aggression at one time or another ( more often than not , I should say ) and sad to say it is mostly negative in nature . It is a word that is misunderstood and therefore widely misused . The good news is , aggression has a positive side and when applied properly can

OMG!!!what a day... Multi-tasking not my forte or so it seems just went to get ready  to take my seat for a micro tournement and found myself not even registerd . Seems that early this morning when reading some material on the internet letting my dog out and making coffee I thought I had registerd to tonights micro when I knew I would have time to play , and when it said you have successfuly regisiterd I tought nothing of it clicked ok and closed the game to continue reading . I mean I do it all the time register click ok and play or return to play at the proper time... but oh no not today , it seems somehow I had registerd into a $24 tournement by mistake... worse than that it started 5minutes after I registerd so I sat out the whole game not even knowing I was in it .. I learned that I must focus more on what I'm doing . there goes my br for the time being .. for now , I will do what I always do when things just go wrong... yes turn to music.... this evening it will be a James Taylor song ... Up on the roof ....  tomorrow i must begin to play some micro cash games so that I can make the wed. league game . I still can't believe I did that wow well here I go up on the roof ...........